Change is hard at first, messy in the middle and gorgeous at the end.

I guess I am on the way to the gorgeousity and undoubtedly, it would be intellectually pleasing. Do I really have dementia? (Just because people were wondering). Let me think. Ummmmm. . Nah nah nah. Look at me I am changing, trying every way I can. I am Changing,  I will be better than I am. It takes courage to let go of the familiar and embrace the new.
Yes! I was extremely social and extroverted through teenage years and college. It wasn't a performance, I just got energy from talking to people and meeting and being around lots of people. I couldn't understand introverts at all. But now, introversion is my greatest strength. I guess it's all about the way we are treated, the things and dramas than happen to us in a certain period. Personality types aren't really something stable, but they are subject to change. In behaviorism the human personality is nothing else but the sum of everything that happened to it and modeled it in a certain manner.
I know where I want to be but I don't know how I will be there.. Disobeying orders is not my way. But, I want my personal space. I feel like going back to the city where I could take a deep breath. Home is not home anymore. Am I weird for liking to be alone? There is nothing more freeing and empowering than learning to like our own company.