You

When I meet you I wasn't planning to fall in love. I wasn't even looking for a new best friend. You changed all that . The attraction was electronic and unexpected. You came into my world and turned it upside down. Our timing was lousy but the connection was impossible to ignore. Our logical minds attempted to take control,  but never had a chance.
               I trusted you implicitly,  and you always told me that you "trusted me and more !" You were the first person that I showed the 'real' me to, and you appreciate me for me. In the short time we were together, you found out more about me than I had ever let anyone else know, we shared and so much, yet there Was still so much to learn. I knew so much about you, and then again, so little. I always assumed that we had so much time. So much I knew, yet so much I wanted to learn. Our love Was a secret, and I Was  happy enough to keep that secret while we tried to sort out the incredible "mess" that we had got ourselves into. I Was happy to wait until circumstances were better.  A couple of years in a life time meant nothing. I never knew that 'time' was the one thing we did not have. You kept pointing to pot -bellied old guys and telling me "that's going to be me !" I never thought that I would not get the chance to see you as "a pot bellied old man." I loved your smile, I loved your eyes, but most of all I fell in love with the person inside all of that.you made me laugh.you made me laugh a lot! You totally cracked me up. You also made me cry, and I hated that. Most of all, you made me feel alive. You were "the one." I love you,and  although you have left an enormous gaping hole in my heart,  I will never regret on meeting you and falling in love with you.  If nothing else I am glad that I made your last few years happy, but.............
I m determined to get to a stage where 95% of the time when I think of you, I will smile at wonderful memories we shared. I am determined to make you proud of me, to live up to your expectations. I know that you always wanted me to be happy, to be satisfied, to have the best. I always wanted you the same for you too.
                                                                           I LOVE  YOU NOW AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. YOU WERE THE MOST INCREDIBLE PERSON THAT I EVER MET AND I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE😊😊😊😊😊.....